Nov 25, 20201 min read

A terrified leap of faith

The truth is that I'm afraid,

Utterly terrified,

Terrified of what's about to come,

And, even after seeing how long I have come,

Even after the achieving all that I have achieved,

The prizes and accolades don't hold much meaning,

Other than that of a time that has long since passed.

I pour myself a drink everyday,

Only to stare at the glass,

Not even taking a sip,

Because I am afraid of drowning in the deep end of the bottle,

and the crippling fear haunts me,

Preventing me from taking action.

I feel like a tortoise confined to a shell,

Cursed to go slow because of circumstances beyond my control,

But still I am forced to move,

Because I have those that depend on me,

And I have to be the one to lead, even though I am terrified,

And utterly afraid.

I know its easy to take a leap of faith but it's another thing to actually land on your feet,

Unhurt and unbroken because after the leap comes the fall,

And even after landing,the feeling of uncertainty never disappears,

But now I have to be stronger even if I'm not yet ready,

Nor do I ever think that I will be,

So I before I leap into my fate,

I just wanted to tell Lady Destiny and Mistress Fate,

That I am afraid,

And that I am utterly terrified.

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