On some days I have random mood swings,
Where my whole mood just switches,
And the worst part of it is that I can't change it,
It just feels as if it just comes and sweeps me off my feet, and compels me to just leave and seek some alone time.
On those days its because I think about my life,
Seven years I haven't been home,
And I wonder if its still home,
Because its been so long and a lot has changed.
When I left I was a teenager fresh out of high school,
No life experience,
Yet I moved to a different nation,
Because circumstances moved me from my place of creation.
I came to a foreign land looking for greener pastures,
Which true to fact I have found,
But even in a better environment I still feel as though something is lacking,
And this place is a house but not a home,
It feels empty and devoid of life,
Yet the idea of going back is impossible and the thought of seeing my mum once again feels like a distant dream at best,
I know that at this stage I'm supposed to be a man but it doesn't help to feel empty inside at times ,
Yeah I'm guessing this is just one of those days.
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